I have finish-itis. I need to start another project for some reason. So I begin!

This is stockinette stitch with some yarnovers. Whoa. So easy it hurts.

Size 10 needles make the yarn waayyy too tight. It’s supposed to be 24” wide but it’s only 20”. Starting over on a larger size. I think I’m going to use size 11. It’s only one size up in US, but its a whole two mm difference, which I think will loosen it up nicely to show off the Holiday yarn properly.

Frogging for the third time because I’ve decided I don’t like how wide it is in the original design. Modifying it to remove one drop-stitch row. Now I am casting on 65 stitches, for 9 drop-stitch rows in the final design instead of 10.

This is bloody heavy. I decided I wanted to use this yarn with this design long before I understand how to match proper fibers together. And now I’m feeling the encroaching issues that go hand in hand with that. Oy.

I’m frogging the sucker. It’s too heavy. When I got to the bind off, I couldn’t remember where to drop my stitches, even though I had marked it at the other end so nicely with pieces of ribbon. So I dropped the wrong row, picked the hundreds of stitches all back up, dropped the next row, went on, dropped another row, realized that was wrong and picked it all back up, and then went back to the first drop, saw that the first drop was wrong, so picked it all back up again, and again, and again, and again. Then it occurred to me, two hours into this picking up and dropping, that maybe my problem was, in fact, not where I’d placed the ribbons, but that I hadn’t picked up my cast-on end right. So I went and looked up how to do that, and learned that sadly, the long-tail cast-on is the hardest kind to pick up. That was my night.

So I’ve decided that this shawl is not meant to be. It occurred to me that a garment I wasn’t going to use properly wasn’t worth this agony. I am not undoing what I’ve done, but simply casting on a new project right this very minute with the end of the cast-off yarn. That way I shall feel less defeated by this whole ugh!