” I was never afraid, the things that normally send one skittering under the bed never fazed me, not bugs, not guns, not heights. But then almost ready to go for a stem cell transplant and they found a tumour on my liver, all the years of medical training went right out the window. I thought that I have come this far, battled for my country and my family and lately my life and never flinched and now I am paralyzed by the fact that they see a new tumour. What if I don’t see my children grow up, what if I can’t keep the promise to my sisters and raise their children. How do I say goodbye when I have barely said hello. Then whilst watching the news I saw the tornadoes hitting Missouri.and I thought that maybe I was asking the same questions these people were asking. Can I protect my children? Where do I find safety? Is God watching? Fear is within us all, for me I had quelled it and swallowed it unknowingly till it paralyzed me. But in order to overcome fear one must have faith, faith in themselves, faith in their God or belief and most of all faith in humanity. I think the hardest part is admitting I have no control, so this pattern is about that heart stopping fear that never appears for some never leaves for others and for me showed me my own vulnerability.”

This KAL will be a three part shawl to begin the 4th of July on a day where many celebrate the fearlessness of many. All proceeds from the sale of this pattern will go to Project Compassion , which is an artist who paints portraits of fallen soldiers to give to their families at no charge to the family.

The KAL will take place in the Ryan Eejit Group.

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